Im just another damned man,
living in a damned world.
27 April 2008
Plans: Morning -Studying SS Chptr 4 -SS Chptr 2
Afternoon -Waste all my graph paper on Emath chptr 5 -Emath TYS
Early Evening -Rest
Evening -SS chptr 3
Night Chiong finish all undone stuff!!!
Thats it, off i go>>>> wait, i feel that my blog has become a pic-journal. Seem to have pictures for every post, so not excluding this either.
10:50 am
24 April 2008
I know i have always been reprimanded by cai laoshi abt my laziness etc. last year... but my attire has been good all the while! AND TODAY, the onlytime she spot me tuck out shirt (which was accidentally caused by some running), i was determined by her as a changed person! WTH. Just once. And she thinks i've changed. Oh well. :( I have been a unlucky loser right?
Details... I helped liyana to get her bag outta SLR, and then i realised fans still on. I went in and off it. When i came out, i didnt know that some teachers were staring at me. (according to melissa, they were alrdy staring at the time) So i kept my stuff, with the bag in front of me, (it makes sense that you put your bag in front of you to keep stuff rite?) And i think i blocked me from seeing my untidy attire. So i continued walking after wearing back my bag at the back. After a few steps, coincidentally i reached the staircase, i realise my shirt hem was out. So i tucked in. ( i swear i still dunno they were staring at my shirt, and therefore it was on my own accord to tuck in!) Then Cai lao shi began scolding me when i popped out of the staircase. She insist i will walk to the bus stop like this if not stopped by her. But as stated above, i alrdy tuck in w/o their instruction to do so. I knew that its impossible to explain to cai laoshi. But the teachers behind consist of MS PHAN! I think there is a need to let her know the truth. So i emailed her a letter. sort of apologetic Dun really feel the need to explain to cai laoshi who nvr listens to ppl. So ms kuck appeared when cai lao shi was scolding. Couldnt explain on the spot too. But i admited my pants was rather loose without a belt. The reason is the pants is 4inches bigger than wat i need! and if i wear it with a belt at waist level it will look baggy. Baggy breaks sch rules right? But my mum dun allow me to buy a new one. So, rather hopes more ppl know the truth.... Best if ms kuck could read this. Haissss. Swei-ness 120%!
When F = 0N, declare me dead, cos i'll no longer be able to hold on...
9:37 pm
23 April 2008
I seriously need help!!! Ex 4G, Qn 2B
Hates a math, hates biology, hates chinese, hates napha test.
the thought of her actually motivates me
5:39 pm
22 April 2008
I kop some photos from the media club,
got me leh! Pro in NPCC. ><
Very PRO RIGHT?
But i will have to wait another year.
6:08 pm
21 April 2008
Im sorry but im just too stressed. I nap does not mean i slack I rest does not mean i don't study. Its all just STRESS.
9:54 pm
20 April 2008
我处在焚膏继晷(fén gāo jì gui)的状态。
I am in the mode of mugging.
请勿打扰。
Please do not disturb.
违法者必究,诛九族。
Intruders will be dealt with, exterminated.
2:09 pm
18 April 2008
I must learn how to smile I should try how to laugh Only then, I will be happy.
8:02 pm
17 April 2008
the reasons why i didnt approach ppl for CM
Im not certain abt the election. Im scared i might chicken out and disappoint my CMs. Seriously, i know im a subsitute for vacancy ):
10:12 pm
Royce is/might be able to join the election. And im quite very sure that he will get his DB head (if he wants). I feel that i have lost the touch of SL. No one wants to/will be my CM. Once again i have prove that im a sucker.
Im not trying to be emo, ok? Im just emo-ing.
8:08 pm
16 April 2008
I feel like a loser. I am a loser I was a loser I will be a loser I might be a loser I can be a loser I shall be a loser I could be a loser I must be a loser I should be a loser I = Loser Loser = I
I cannot/mustnot/willnot/shouldnot join the exco elections. Not that i DOn't want. But i think ppl DOn't want ME. Cos I appear to be such a loser, all becos of my mistake, It was minor, but i treat it as major. Maybe it was really a major mistake after all. I really tried to deal with the tinted glance. But that might be the reason that stop me, to have enough COURAGE to take the challenge, even if i will never gain support. I think there is a total possibility of 0% that i will gain trust in such a small period of time?!!! Teachers? Juniors? Seniors? I only JUST reinstated, impossible to prove myself. I always have the urge to put back DBrian in my profile. Now i can, but to put a DB head is just a bubble, you know? IT BURSTS. I'm just a loser, believe it.
In conclusion, to run exco election (to my case) is a waste of time. Since i will never gain votes. D=
7:11 pm
15 April 2008
I am reinstated... But am i still suit to that kind life? Is it too late to join back now? Should i take part in elections?? Is it all too late????
am i wrong to hold on...
the sky is as gloomy as mine
6:10 pm
14 April 2008
Tmr have physics test or not?????? GRRRRRRR. Very scared, cos i ALMOST failed the previous kinematics test. Short post, go decide to study or not le.
life sucks. Should i......
7:33 pm
10 April 2008
PROCRASTINATION
PROCRASTINATION Procrastination is a type of behavior which is characterized by deferment of actions or tasks to a later time. Psychologists often cite procrastination as a mechanism for coping with the anxiety associated with starting or completing any task or decision.
For the person procrastinating this may result in stress, a sense of guilt, the loss of personal productivity, the creation of crisis and the disapproval of others for not fulfilling one's responsibilities or commitments. While it is normal for individuals to procrastinate to some degree, it becomes a problem when it impedes normal functioning. Chronic procrastination may be a sign of an underlying psychological or physiological disorder.
The word itself comes from the Latin word procrastinatus: pro- (forward) and crastinus (of tomorrow). The term's first known appearance was in Edward Hall's Chronicle (The union of the two noble and illustre famelies of Lancestre and Yorke), first published sometime before 1548. The sermon reflected procrastination's connection at the time to task avoidance or delay, volition or will, and sin.
The psychological causes of procrastination vary greatly, but generally surround issues of anxiety, low sense of self-worth, and a self-defeating mentality. Procrastinators are also thought to have a higher-than-normal level of conscientiousness, more based on the "dreams and wishes" of perfection or achievement in contrast to a realistic appreciation of their obligations and potential.
Author David Allen brings up two major psychological causes of procrastination at work and in life which are related to anxiety, not laziness.[citation needed] The first category comprises things too small to worry about, tasks that are an annoying interruption in the flow of things, and for which there are low-impact workarounds; an example might be organizing a messy room. The second category comprises things too big to control, tasks that a person might fear, or for which the implications might have a great impact on a person's life; an example might be the adult children of a deteriorating elderly parent deciding what living arrangement would be best.
A person might unconsciously overestimate or underestimate the scale of a task if procrastination has become a habit.
From the behavioral psychology point of view, James Mazur has said that procrastination is a particular case of "impulsiveness" as opposed to self control. Mazur states that procrastination occurs because of a temporal discounting of a punisher, as it happens with the temporal discount for a reinforcer. Procrastination, then, as Mazur says, happens when a choice has to be made between a later larger task and a sooner small task; as the absolute value of the task gets discounted by the time, a subject tends to choose the later large task.
The relaxed type The relaxed type of procrastinators view their responsibilities negatively and avoid them by directing energy into other tasks. It is common, for example, for relaxed type procrastinating children to abandon schoolwork but not their social lives. Students often see projects as a whole rather than breaking them into smaller parts. This type of procrastination is a form of denial or cover-up; therefore, typically no help is being sought. Furthermore, they are also unable to defer gratification. The procrastinator avoids situations that would cause displeasure, indulging instead in more enjoyable activities. In Freudian terms, such procrastinators refuse to renounce the pleasure principle, instead sacrificing the reality principle. They may not appear to be worried about work and deadlines, but this is simply an evasion.
The genius procrastinator Genius procrastinator is a type of relaxed procrastinator intelligent person. Unlike the typical relaxed type procrastinator, who usually does not care about what they are delaying, geniuses do care but do not need to put a great deal of effort into that area to do well, and therefore can wait until the last minute, put in minimal effort, and still produce a good result. Genius procrastinators often work well under pressure; often, when they do not have a deadline set for a project, their work lags. Other genius procrastinators are just lazy with their time in general, and when they're procrastinating in a subject that they are not as skilled at, they usually fall under the tense-afraid type (see below). A common example of the genius procrastinator is the precocious student who is working in a class where the expectations are set far below their ability level in that subject. For example, a gifted writer in a standard elementary or middle school English class often waits until the last minute to write their papers because they know that they will get an A even by putting in the lowest amount of effort possible, and that to expend any more effort than that on such an assignment would be wasteful.
The tense-afraid type The tense-afraid type of procrastinator usually feels overwhelmed with pressure, unrealistic about time, uncertain about goals and many other negative feelings. Feeling that they lack the ability or focus to successfully complete their work, they tell themselves that they need to unwind and relax, that it's better to take it easy for the afternoon, for example, and start afresh in the morning. They usually have grandiose plans that aren't realistic. Their 'relaxing' is often temporary and ineffective, and leads to even more stress as time runs out, deadlines approach and the person feels increasingly guilty and apprehensive. This behavior becomes a cycle of failure and delay, as plans and goals are put off, penciled into the following day or week in the diary again and again. It can also have a debilitating effect on their personal lives and relationships. Since they are uncertain about their goals, they often feel awkward with people who appear confident and goal-oriented, which can lead to depression. Tense-afraid procrastinators often withdraw from social life, avoiding contact even with close friends.
Im the latter.
8:30 pm
09 April 2008
Went to Chinese Language Challenge filming yesterday. Quite fun, from 6-10pm. BUT NO FOOD PROVIDED!!! We eventually shared 2nd place with Fuchun Sec after 1st and 2nd round, and went through to 3rd round. The score was, Bendemeer Sec 8, XMS and Fuchun 6.
3rd round. the game was suppose to see the hanyu pinyin sentence given to you, and complete the sentence by typing them out using chinese sms. We lost terribly for the first two qns. But we manage to answer one and draw up with Fuchun again. The score was, Bendemeer Sec 16, XMS and Fuchun 8.
The last round damn excited, can deduct points de. then we manage to hold through and answer ALL. It like you suppose to start a chengyu(idioms) with the first word same as the previous chengyu. (fast forward) Last string of chengyu chain started, and xinmin and Bendemeer on PAR. That means we have chase them from EIGHT points down!!! Reach Bendemeer turn le, every one griping their hand, and they couldnt ANSWER! Xinmin won by 2 pts!!!!
The filming was damn tiring and long and DAMN LOT TECHNICAL ERRORS + NG. Finally Finish. Went back to school and reach at 11. So went home no time to prepare NPCC and do hw le lor. Go sleep.
TODAY. Shili spoke to me, or rather irritate me when i was finding ms kuck, AFTER a few days w/o talking to me cos i dunno why. -.-
When NPCC, elgin take my squad lor, quite fun and well used time i would say. Games time, played captain ball and those basketball maniac pang seh me again,had to join JEFF. -.-!!! And i found out the best tactics to disrupt a player in captain ball, is to hug the opponent, like wad JEFF did to percy.
HOPES to be NPCC TOP 5. So i can acheive my goal. TO be training head, campcraft head and PTI. But i feel weird as there are OTHERS who want to be training head too. hais Wish me luck.
8:13 pm
06 April 2008
8:54 pm
05 April 2008
ROFL LOL LMAO
8:22 pm
04 April 2008
Boo peeps, I remembered wad i want to post le. Campcraft result is out. The girls got 34 outta 120+ schs Previous batch got 33.
Boys got 88! Yay yayayyayayayayay! although not very good la. But we won the previous batch, which one of them (Jasper) were our trainer. Haha. NoObs Senior. They got 130+ outta 180+, and we manage to be the above avg and lucky number! (not: No. 88 is the bus i take to sch...)
9:36 pm
She only knows how to 'Boo', whenever she starts a conversation. -.- As if anyone would reply: "wahhh, so scaryyyyy!!!" LOLS. jk. no offence.
Anyway, was real fed up wif ms siva during Homecoming Day discussion. ONE THING. She got no experience AT ALL! And i think all her ideas were not feasible. She asked "ANYONE knows how to cook a chicken wing?" Firstly, its 4 hr whole-class-involved event,and how could it be "good" acording to her, whn only ONE person kinda know how to cook properly. I mean its RIDICULOUS! You expect ONE person to cook all the food for the day? For 4 hrs straight? Then this is wad she said: "Of cos not, everyone take a shift, one at a time while the other 40+ ppl do other stuff AT THE STALL wait for their shift to come" Crap la. 1 person cook only, Plus the whole class must be there for 4hrs. Thenwe buy tickets for wad. Donate to our own class sales arh. You GO HOME WAIT also dun have LAH You only care about your debate ppl, then own class heck care la Somemore she said there are 3 other class selling same thing. Come on la, who is the one wif the idea, its you yourself! So she asked:"anyone knows any magic to attract customeers?" Same prob again, same guy doing the same tricks for 4hrs. And as if ppl would be attracted to a magic performance when the place is so big. And we were so rushed and unprepared cos you were like unwilling to sacrificed some English lesson time. You will be very happy if our class fail our homecoming right? NO design for booth yet. Banner just started bcos we reminded you. Flyer not done yet. Food not chosen yet. Barbeque pit or stuff we need DUNNO yet. No real shift yet, cos you kinda ignored the one I DID. Basically NO PLANNING YET. I think now then she realised the importance of the lack of time for homecoming preparation. So she had to force us to come tmr, saturday! Your fault became ALL our class fault.
9:06 pm
03 April 2008
Feeelingg very sick.... been evolving from sore throat to flu then cough and now cough + flu. -.- Someone still angry with me, for that stupid mistake. Doesnt fell like doing math hw at all. Feeling very stress-ed. Xinthesis commitee, Homecoming day, Amath hw, e math hw, NPCC tmr, Mid year, Physics Test, History Test, disturbed by rumours, and decision over removal of suspension. Very tired and lonely at night. Always chionging A math at night...... With the stupid phone beside me. Want to sms ppl also sleep liao. very stress la.
AND dumbdumb SHILI, I'm should be the one gossiping abt others, not the other way round. ><
8:29 pm
01 April 2008
150th post. we had Napha test today during PE. I seem to get older and its more difficult to finish the Test. Lols. But i still manage to get A. How many? Not gonna tell u. But standing broad jump i deproved by 8 cm. Every year deproved de leh... but i still manage to get an A, 472. ah ha April fool, divide by two pls. Sadly i can only do 15 situp per min, can you believe it, I failed! Weel i think you better dun believe cos you are an April Fool. Sit and Reach were damn easy for me this year, cos i got thinner? XAX. Anyway, inclined pull up super funny, do untill 27 which is A can le, so chicken easy man. But i cant believe some long hand fish can fail. Last but not least, its the shutter run. Scariest of all for the 5. But i manage to improve! Been deproving for shutter run since sec 1. During the run, my mucus almost dripped, super gao xiao, i think it slowed me a little?
Back to the special day, APRIL FOOL's Day. I was fooled 2 times and fooled others >5 times! haha. Some ppl like 'the noob' tends to be fooled more easily and more FREQUENTLY. Commonly used by me: "Hey your back's dirty!" Common till not funny(didnt use) : "Your money dropped" Special + super rofl : "Hey why your socks so damn high? (the person wearing ankle socks)"
Anyway, i went to buy soya bean drink at the drink stall. Then i sip a little and tell the auntie: "why is it sour?" (auntie stunned) "April Fool"